perluke sembahyang

this is a highly sensitive subject to a muslim and i have to say that you do not have to agree with me.

i have issues with this. my parents highly emphasized on marrying a somebody who prays at least the compulsory 5. well, maybe because their daughter is not a traditional muslim. but...

throughout the course of my life, i found out that, the pureness of your thoughts and feelings are purely not related to the many times you prayed and the countless times you took maximum care of your behavior i.e, hijab, fasting, zakat, sedekah, kenduri, reciting the holy quran, and many more. [i told u, i am not traditional, thus my knowledge is minimal]

i dated somebody who prays only when the occasion merits it and some other who gets agitated even if the occasion so much as caused a delayed prayer. to quote a dear friend of mine, 'baby, you are on number 17 and counting'. that is the number of bigger boys [since i do not believe in the existence of men] i've seen.

faith is something that is very hard to define what more comprehend. i feel that it is something bestowed unto you by the Almighty. if you have faith, you will seek Him and insyaAllah find him. He will lead your way.

i have to say that some get really cocky 'thinking' they are religious. they become careless in their dealings with man.

thus...

i came to a conclusion and also a new year resolution. i shall stop looking for a potential husband by looking at his relationship with Allah.

kalao die tak sembahyang, he is not dragging me along with him to hell. however, if he doesn't ensure that i practice as i am supposed to, he is so going to rot in hell together with me.

tak ada benda pasang siap atas dunia ni. of course, i want a perfect life by my definition, but i too, have to be realistic. maybe Allah knows that i can bring a world of good to someone life. or maybe, i have drifted far from His path and He wants me to find Him.

my only prayer is, please do not let me forget my duties to You and help me to answers to Your callings. AMIN.