while you were away...

dear you,
while you were away, i was lonely. you know how hard it is to witness other people smooching in the public while i was totally alone to nurse the longing, i'm sure you've been feeling it too. its more common at your place.

while you were away, i've done a lot of thinking. i think that you are such a great person and i really don't deserve you. and...there is this girl who has been returning my ever-so-subtle-close-to-no attention. she is working near me, we ran into each other a lot.

while you were away, i try to understand why are you always whining about meeting up, time and calls. i know you missed me and lord knows how much i've been missing your company. and i think maybe, just maybe you want to date somebody that can be by-your-side [literally] all the time.

then, without even realizing, i started giving the other girl even more attention and appreciation. suddenly, i realized that i went too far. i sort of feel the comfort of her presence.

you don't know how sorry i am right now. i know that you really don't deserve this kind of treatment. i know i've been giving you false hopes and on bad times been mean to you. it was all my fault. i will never be able to tell you how much remorse i am feeling right now.

i hope, you can find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me someday.

that was my own rendition of mohd nasaruddin abd rahman apology if he was ever going to be given the chance to make me listen/read. or dalam bahasa melayu die...

"Salam. Selamat berpuasa. I hrp u sihat. I cuma nk minta maaf byk2 kat u. Kalo blh I nk bersemuka ngn u ntok minta maaf n menerangkn segala2nya."

the hell???

especially after "dh dicuri org"

dear mister, i have to tell you that forgiving you is hard even when i don't want to do so. so i want you to just imagine how hard it is when i really want to for goodness sake. for the love of everything that holy, i want you to know that i will forgive you when i want to but i will NEVER forget.

no matter how nice i am, you are still an ARSE. so i will NEVER be nice to you. !!!take note