one year and counting

Today, one year ago is bf and myself first date. I recalled the night before the date I was making out with a different guy. Ewww but that guy is such a looker and a charmer. So that was it, few hours before my first date with my current boyfriend I was smooching another guy and no one knows that. I should not be blamed cuz how am I supposed to expect that in no time I am meeting the person that I am going to love???

I do NOT blame myself. Now, I am in love, I believe, but he can only be my present and never future. That part I am well aware of. We came back from the date light headed as I get to expand my collection of kissed-guy and he gets to hold the person he thought gorgeous. Well, maybe I am just his another conquest. Owh I don't care, at least I don't for now.

Sometimes I do think of someone else, one person that I believe will be my future but somehow I could not put his face in my perfect picture of married life. That's unfair and cunning. Had the situation be any different I would love to be with Yogi in the future though I truly believe that it won't in any way be simple.

I can't wait to know who is the person I am going to devote my love to for the rest of my life. The person whose child beared by my voluptous curves, and whose family and siblings I would care for. Hope he'll be worth the wait and all the pain I've been through in my search of love.