i deserve a novel

a: apelah payah sangat kesah cinta ko ni kak...layak di buat novel ni

r: novel mendenye...nangis aje

a: aku harus buat novel. biar nanti anak aku tau bercinta ni tak mudah. ko, contohnye, siksa aje

r: aah iye lah

a: derita itu indah kak. ko mesti faham

well, for a while i really thought it is going to be over soon. my journey to find my man. the one i would spend my lifetime with and also the one who is willing to spend his the rest of his miserable life with me. hehe

i am still counting days to a tear-less day. i have not met any. i hope i am going to be blessed with one soon. heart-ache free day. how nice. at least a good start for lovely days ahead.

i also notice that the grieve not only managed to take my spirit, my smiles, but also few inches from my hip. yippie~ i guess i was really heart broken. the tailored pant i made in bangkok is really loose. it hangs well below my low-cut g-string and i have only worn in once before. aiseyyy

adik, i want you to know that i meant well by not telling you. i am sure you have more things to worry on. i prefer to tell you nice stories. ure under confinement, you do not need my sorrow to add up to your other worries.

to baby mia, angah, acik, iqa nur, akak, atin, ayz... from deep within, i really hope that none of you will have to go through this. it hurts for me, it hurts mom.

ma'am, thank you for being my pillar of strength. thank you for listening and being such a supporting buddy you are. thank you for understanding that i have done my very best. thank you for being you.

to friends, ajid, shah, hajar, mohsen, asda, lidd, sarah, aisha, fara, frisha, shaza, and last but not least goof, thank you for being there. thank you for staying on with this cry baby.