i just...

i just want to dedicate a few entries to my recent love affair. restraining myself from writing such entry here feels so weird as love is part of me as well. part of life. part of my life. so from now on i will not be bias and write as i may.

:)

suka tak? ***hehehe

i always have issues with lelaki melayu. i feel that they are so vain when in comes to 'flaunting' their affection. !!!gagal. when it is really not that hard. it should not be hard when you can simply be so uncontrolably mad within seconds. why cant you be charming next?

but after so so so long...i am now back to the mainline, dating lelaki melayu. my goldfish. my *blub blub.

we met quite a while ago. if i remember it right, the first time was April 2007 in Kerteh. though i hardly remember the scene despite my hard trials. goldie remembered though, he said we were introduced by azwan, his officemate in office. i remember visiting his office as it was my first time out. back then, he was just another guy. i was happily dating my indian boyfriend that i could not care less bout just another normal malay guy [he appears like one that time].

after that, there was a few phone calls and very few meetings. but then again, still no spark. he is so quiet so no fun guy. sports the serious look all the time. well, i can say he has multiple style of serious and so working hard looks, okay. whenever i am forced to buzz him up, i dread. cuz it means that theres a big issue going on, and i am not in a good mood already, and he would be so himself and that never helps.

but call him i may and i will strive to settle the issue right away. if not settle, then try to just cut the part where i need to deal with him short. he is sooo boring that i took him as a married guy. can imagine??? hehehe

until... september 2007 i was in K*rteh again for a meeting and he was there. i called him earlier to get his assistance to gather a few people for a networking dinner. i remembered that he was in such a good mood, unlike what i get from countless other previous calls. all the time in K*rteh, he was nice and graceful. and i found out that he is actually single! shocking! hehehe. he talked a LOTTT, which makes him appear more normal, or if i may say, human.

i started to like him a little... seriously??? yesss

september 27, 2007, i was in Thailand, got a call from my customer saying that theres quality issue. my boss was by my side and he immediately asked me to call goldie. well, back then he was just n***. so call him i did, and we discussed a little. so little. he promised he would call me back.

i waited for a few good hours though, but still, no call. i called him back, when i am back on Malaysian land to get more information. we talked for a longer while and i heard the 'azan' coming from his end of the line.

me : eh n*** dah azan la. u makan la dulu. we talk again later.

him: okay

me : bye

him: bye

it was ramadhan, hehehe. later that night in the train, i texted him again saying that its too late in the night and i am too tired for more work, so i suggested that we work on it again on monday [27.09.07 is a thursday] with a full hope that my buyer wont be pestering me with solutions, of course.

my buyer did call me over the weekend checking on her cargo so i have no other options but to call him back. aha~~~ so we talked a little, and it followed by few text messages that nite. and a lot more text messages the following night and the coming morning. after a few days of lotsa texts, i figure that he must have liked me. yeay~

do i like him then? i obviously loveee the attention. so i just play along and observe. well, that lasts for 4-5 days aje. he dedicated our love song to me, he even practiced the chorus and sang it to me over the phone. sweet? yes sweet. after that, when he asked me out, i said YES.

its too long of an entry now, i will write more later.

da~~