call me when its over

what's over? i am over, i am so over him. but he is here, still here. having absolutely no idea on what's going on inside my head. me, on the other hand is contemplating whether or not i should tell him now when i will be so near to him next week.

i just found my mojo and its working well at the moment. i feel fine, rejuvenated and alive. this relationship has done nothing to me but good. i got over my jerk ex-bf and i have two glorious years having a brilliant partner. brilliant + so in love with me.

however, i've known it from the very first day that we are going to have to call it off someday, sooner or later. he knew it all along too. we talked about it once, and i ended up having blue black puffy eyes the next day, thanks to crying all night. sometime after the first incident, we tried to talk about it again, still the same result. we gave up talking.

resorted to just enjoying the company of each other though its heartbreaking to listen to everyone else's wedding plans. it hurts so much whenever i say i-love-u-too for a thousand times or so knowing it has to be over soon.

so this is IT. this is over. thank GOD for granting me my wish. i will now concentrate on not hurting anyone. AMIN